Saturday, March 27, 2010

A blahhh day.

...I've been thinking these past couple of days about a buttload of things. What if I'm digging myself into a hole, that maybe I wont be able to dig myself out of in the future? I mean what if what I'm doing really isnt right for me? All these questions fill my head through out the the end of the day its my decision of course, I am really the only one that can stop it... The question is : Do I really want to ?.. the million dollar question. I've realized that in life when it comes down to it, you really have no one to run to but yourself. Or maybe thats just me. Maybe its better that way, because in my current situation, all I have is myself. I dont know, maybe I'm just in my feelings at this current moment, who knows. I guess its better to have yourself, then no one at all... right ?

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I have to get out!! tryna find a job aint no joke ! I am tired of having to depend on others for money.. I feel like such a burden in there lives. Its like when apply placess i hound them and hound them, but nooooo can siedah get a break ? nope. But on some serious shit, me, jenae, and maria bout to get on this job grind so we can finally move out of the house.. I need to make it on my own, i serioulsy think im ready., wait i know im ready. I just applyed to for love 21 yesterday so i am seriously going to hound them about a job, i really wanna be ballin out of control..

-the money is the motive.$$$$

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

And the say things will get better ? least that's what i hope, what I've noticed in the past weekend is that i am a very dependant person, and so have all my other friends. Well at least i noticed first ? it seems so, that when you pour your heart out to someone, and tell them EXACTLY how you feel, they never really get exactly how you feel. Or maybe that's just the way my situation went.. ughhh and i really don't know how to fix this, or maybe it really isn't my job to fix ? idk... It seemed to me that my entire world came crashing down in a matter of a weekend.. what I don't understand is how something that we had could have changed in a matter of two days... TWO DAYS!. I'm beginning to think that there were never any real feelings to begin with.. but of course according to him i was "sadly mistaken".. whatever.. you could have made it work, you should have made it work, but i wasn't trying hard enough?? bullshit. It was just as bitch way to get out of something that he couldnt handle...maybe im being a bit dramatic? but dont I have that right?..ughhh maybe things will get better..cuz right not, it aint lookin so hot.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

A good day ?

Mcdonalds is a MUST when your in college =) livin the good life ? duhhhh.

my bestest friend in the whole wide world ! Toni =)

today is a blah day. dont have much to write. pictures later ? probably.

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im pretty much social =)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

blah blah blah.

Today should be a good day? I'm sitting here in TCC's library with jenae, and i contemplating this one thought:
  1. Is doing something that pleases others really good for you? i mean seriously if a certain someone makes you happy, shouldn't that be all that matters ?

I guess not in the real world. I guess its just frustrating sometime when you cant live your life ( or maybe I'm being a bit dramatic) but still. Understanding the circumstances fully, but still shouldn't they give said person an ounce of a chance ? Maybe I'm the only one that thinks so because I'm blinded by some sort of feelings, I'm not really sure. Time and time again I ask people for advice, and what they feel I should do on the situation.. but maybe its time I should stop. Maybe I should just follow my heart, and see where this thing goes.. Maybe I shouldn't. I'm not really sure about things these days... Follow my heart?.. or let it go..?

BTW: Buffalo Wild Wings has THE best parmesan garlic wings..

BTW again:


-that is all

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

mannn i love this.

love taking his picture.

again, love taking his pictures.

caught off gaurd.

i loveeeeee dre is this pic (girl)

caught off gaurd again.

Today was very eventfull. Woke up for class, then came home for a few to squeeze in a quick photoshoot with my sister.. Its really hard trying to upload and edit pictures when you dont have a computer of your own..! so bare with me people. Anyways, here are more pictures that i took today and other day for your viewing pleasure.

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More coming soon =)

Im new to this =)

Soooo, im new to this whole blogging thing., sitting here next to jackie while she attempts to write this accounting paper, its due in an hour, and she has one page. The problem is she needs three pages. =/ I wish to start a blog about my photography, mind you its not fantastic, but it gets me through the day. One day i aspire to be really successful, and take it to a new level. If anyone has a problem, i will end you.

-bask in it.